speed typing!

i'm going to see how fast i can make this post.  which probably means it'll be really long and i'll go to bed late and be completely exhausted until saturday when i get to sleep in again, for only the second time in two weeks!!!

i am coming to the opinion that i was not created to be awake at 8 in the morning.  ever.  somehow Union didn't get that memo, and then they wondered why i slept through half those classes junior year. 

my thoughts are, for the most part, a jumbled mess and entirely incomprehensible to anyone else or even myself. 

and because i've been yawning constantly for the past 10 days, instead of doing my to-do list (which is generally what one does with such a thing) i turned to YouTube.  the woman i sat next to yesterday and i had a conversation that wound up on homeschooling and Tim Hawkins.  i have over the past several years realized that it is totally okay to say to the world that i was homeschooled, and far more stereotypically so than i want to admit.  Tim Hawkins, a very light-hearted Christian comedian has a great song on that, and this lead me to a good long playlist of his. 

so i've been laughing the past hour, enjoying the pre-bedtime playtime.  i'm counting the days until orientation is done and my schedule changes.  it's getting to a pretty small number.  i'm also happy because tomorrow is my first pay-day.  tomorrow i will probably be sad once i see how much of it the government took away from me, but until then i shall relish the thought of actually getting money from somewhere instead of just handing it out.

i'm also happy because my first clinical buddy is now also a Registered Nurse, official as of yesterday.  i daggum wish she were here, but i still had a great 4 school years with her and she's going to go save tons of lives somewhere and that is just cool.

i'm also happy… well a good part of it is because no matter how i may feel at times, i never really have too much reason to NOT be happy.  i remember when i did, and those days are OVER.  it's not like i'm going to make a comedy routine out of some of it because alot does not contain any humour, but i rejoice that the "now" is a million times better and the "later" will be incalculatably improved.  either i just made up a new word or else there is another way to spell that.   

whatever you may be going through, i hope that at some point you can find the joy instead of letting all the other human emotions crowd it out.  even a little joy makes a huge difference, and just a pinch will multiply exponentially.