labor day was pretty great, despite the fact that i was awake for much more of it than i would have originally planned. the first 2 hours of so of consciousness are my least favorite. after that point, i'm into something of a rhythm at my shift, and then i blink, and then it's 4 pm and we're looking forward to the end of a shift coming in the next… 4hours or less :)
this labor day was even better because when i walked out the door this huge wall of wonderfully brisk air hit my face, for the first time in many moons. i started off terribly bummed that i would spend this whole day indoors, but it always winds up being worth it (once i've clocked out). i chose to perform a task myself instead of handing it off to another nurse, and was rewarded by looking out the patient's window and seeing a gorgeous sunset. the kind that makes you feel all sentimental and fuzzy inside even after you look away and watch what you're doing holding all kinds of medical equipment over your patient's head. it was another long day, full of much labor, but i smiled in triumph at the security cameras in the walkway to the car.
the cool fall air was still there that night, and is still here today. if the weathermen are to be believed, it may stick around for a while yet- not a problem for me!! i love the smells so characteristic of fall that are all over outside now. i think fall is a wonderful, but almost weird, season. after so much heat, sweat, lying around and panting for oxygen all through the summer, the fall always feel incredibly refreshing. and those two weeks where the leaves are both pretty AND on the trees are nothin' short of magical. but there's an undercurrent of intense… anticipation, i would say. fall is all about change-watching one season leave and one yet to come. school has started, and kids automatically count the days until the next school break- christmas break (thanksgiving's break is not really long enough to count for anything). sorry friends...you've got a while. if you're that impatient, just head over to the nearest Hobby Lobby. even 2 weeks ago when my thermometer was melting, the full collection of christmas trees was up, dressed and standing tall on the stands...and 50% off, like the rest of the store that day. those are my favorite days to be there :)
the music director has also sucked me into the Living Christmas Tree choir rehearsals. the kick-off rehearsal was last night, and believe it or not i enjoyed myself. even though i've never sung alto and was sitting next to one of those stereotypical baptist women who does so much right, has 2 amazing kids and hit every note perfectly.
but for whatever reason, say "fall" and something in the back of people's heads responds "yay- christmas is coming!"
yeah, so is tomorrow. and as long as it remains september, tomorrow is not christmas.
i've discovered i really hate spending each day NOW waiting for christmas, or summer, or a weekend, or anything other than TODAY. i have accumulated an unfortunately large number of days waiting for something or someone or somewhere instead of taking what i have and moving forward with life. life's short enough as is, no need to go waste the bit i have right now.
i might not get a tomorrow. not that i have a huge problem with it, as God's the one who has control over all that. but i want my TODAY to mean something to someone else who'll still be around.
enjoy the fall- please! it's amazing, and it's going to be gone in, like… 2 seconds.
look forward to a cozy winter, getting a warm coat, watching your breath float away, hot chocolate, Elf, and snowmen (as long as you're not in Tennessee).
but look at today! it's right here smiling back at you. like this ---> :)
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