you'd think House would have learned by now!

being a person who loves that whole medical world, i love Dr. House.  the bad part of me also appreciates the not-understood, incredibly sarcastic personality of a doctor who is way too smart for himself.  which is why i always wonder why they keep putting patients in that MRI machine.  it seems that it's the best way to cause a major trauma, given the show's 100% MRI-trauma incidence rate.  this current episode features a gypsy who, 15 seconds after they start the procedure, goes into immediate liver failure because the entire hepatic artery blocks itself off.  i think part of the reason i like the show is because i know just barely enough to catch a mistake or two every time, and while i disagree with just about every moral/ethical decision House makes i can still sympathize with many of the struggles he has.  being such a ridiculously brilliant scientist as he is, he cannot grasp the concept of something larger than science- something he can't control, or fix, or manipulate.  he can't even see it and therefore denies its existence.   and  then he spends his life trying to correct problems to hide from his own.  which is why i so often connect with him.  it's sad, but so, so true.  i was maybe half a step ahead of him because i was able to wrap my brain around the idea of a higher power, but up until about 1.5 years ago, my heart was left completely out of the game.  while i wasn't as open about it usually, i was drowning in a pool of my own cynicism and frustration that had no outlet.  one of my favorite quotes from House comes from a patient- i think it was a nun- who told him, "you can't be angry at God and not believe in him at the same time."  one of the very few times Dr. House had no witty comeback, because that is getting to the root of his problem.  his religious patients come far closer to diagnosing him than anyone else. 

i'm glad my friends didn't give up on me like House's have.  i'm grateful God found it in His plan to break through this thick skull and rock-hard heart.  i was crippled at least as bad as grumpy Gregory, but step by slow step i was finally lead to a place (well, the ONLY place, really)  where i could reconcile science with spirituality, the brain with the heart, a world full of anger and sin where horrible things happen to "good" people with a God who is still there, fully in control, who would never abuse the power or those who can trust Him despite life-shattering circumstances that make NO earthly sense. 

that place looks just like a cross.

i haven't seen anything past Season 5; maybe he gets clean and drops the drugs (don't spoil it for me, okay?).  his drugs are nothing more than another cover-up, and a pretty poor one at that.  but there was hope aplenty for me, so there's enough for the other Dr. Houses of this world...as long as they stop using MRIs.