another pre-thought...

i'm about to have a big thought.  i think so, anyway.
i'm too anxious about tomorrow to think Big Thoughts tonight, however.
i definitely just touched a treadmill for the first time since early february.  not only touched it, but went for a good brisk up-inclined power walk for 30 minutes on it.  and then moved on to the torture devices left scattered around the periphery of the gym.  i think i might wake up in the...early afternoon feeling like i need to never do that again.  i love having a gym nearby that is open 24 hours a day because nobody else was there to witness.  it's also free, so basically it was self-torture.  i'm hoping i can figure out a way to keep it up, because i definitely need to, unless it lowers my blood pressure which is already approaching cardiogenic shock-like in nature.  totally used it as an excuse to take some extra goldfish at AWANA.  those things have about a month's worth of sodium in each individual fish, but they're so yummy!!! i bet my BP shot all the way up to 95/60 or something ridiculous like that.
so after AWANA and gym-time, i came back and worked on my nails while i watched episodes of Chuck, the only show i've actually followed since the beginning (of Chuck).  then read more of another book that i think is going to be the start of several Big Thoughts coming up.  everybody needs things in their lives that really make them think.  even if they disagree or can't fully comprehend an idea, at least try!!! i mean, Francis Chan may not be the best one to start with if you've never tried thinking at all, but his books come highly recommended for those up to a challenge...one i'm hardly qualified for, but attempting again anyway.
gahh!!! so much thinking to do!!!  don't know how to cram it all into the next 30 minutes or so of consciousness i have left before i drop off to sleep. 
i love seeing that i still have "followers." it's convinced me that maybe this is not a total waste of time.  it makes me feel better- that someone out there is listening, and i can only hope that you benefit in some small or large way from it. 
okay.  go find something to think about, and let me know about it!!!